My Past and The Pursuit of Happyness
I know, I know. Cheesy name. I couldn’t resist, though. It’s the title of my favorite movie. Sorry not sorry.
If there’s one thing that everyone that knows about me, it’s that I’m happy. Always. No matter what happens in my life, I find a way to take the positive out of it and leave a smile on my face. People are always curious as to how I do it.
That’s always a tough question to answer. Let’s start by going back to when I couldn’t do it.
If you didn’t know, when I was in high school, I was lonely, very lonely, and depressed. I didn’t talk to many people, and when I did it was only the bare minimum. I just sat in classrooms, listening to everyone else being happy. I sat quietly in every class, listened to whatever emo band seemed appropriate and started out of the the window on the bus ride home, and then sat on the computer all night at home. I was miserable. I felt like I was never happy, and that I was just in the way. After a while, I got sick of it, and made a decision. I decided that I was going to go big or go home, that I would be as social as possible from then on out.
Luckily for me, I went big, and it worked. I’ve since become a very social person, and have no issues talking to anyone. But that’s not the point of this blog. The point I was trying to make is that I’ve been at the bottom. While I was there, I learned that most of the reasons I were sad were in my head. I would sit by myself and think about how worthless I was, and how bad things were. I was over-thinking everything, and thinking negatively when I did.
When I became more social, and started hanging out with others, I realized I stopped thinking about everything as much. I stopped overanalyzing and looking for the flaws in everything, and just started appreciating everything for what it was. If it was something good, it was a blessing and I was thankful for it. If something negative were to happen, I recognized that I could learn and grow from it, and was thankful for getting through it.
It was really all mental.
Since I’ve come to college, I’ve noticed that most of the people around think more like I did in the past than how I do now, and it’s sad to see. I can usually talk any friends out of whatever bad mood they’re in, and honestly it’s just by using the same mindset toward their issues that I do toward my own. However, I know deep down inside that if they could just see life the way that I do, that they would be so much happier, and it’s sort of unsettling. Life is so beautiful if you don’t try to strip it down and point out every ugly detail. Just appreciate it all for what it is.
Guys, you’re all beautiful people. You’re all full of so much love and potential, it’s amazing. I can see it in each and every one of you. The whole world can see it if you let it. All you have to do to see it is stop hiding behind all of the negativity. Don’t worry about what could go wrong, don’t think you aren’t good enough. Go out there thinking of what could go right, and know that you’re amazing. A little confidence really can go a long way. I think I’m proof of that.
The pessimist turned optimist.